Brain Barf

May contain traces of nuts.

Sunday, September 11, 2011


I'm in a dark downward spiral. 
But, because I'm me, I don't let people close ever even know. 
Let alone help.
I don't *feel* suicidal.
I just feel like death is a plausible solution to the problems. 
Its an answer to non-existent solutions.
I think the thing that should really scare me, is that it doesn't scare me.

It's pretty black and white to me.
The mountain is bigger than my available resources.


Sunday, September 04, 2011


I forgive myself.
In ways no one will ever know/NO!
LIFE is cancer.